How do you explain..

How do you explain..

a father abandoning his first child, his only daughter and the second wife doing her best to wipe that child from his memory?

that the girl is worthy and wanted and loved even though 26 years have gone by and no matter how hard she tries to be a part of his life and have him give a damn, time has run out

she isn’t even told he has died and was never even supposed to know he was sick.

How do you explain in a way that doesn’t sound hollow and meaningless against the years of truth

when you want to breathe a sigh of relief because the waiting and hoping are now one less knife held to a beautiful tender heart.

what a fool I was to think he even deserved this precious gift

Sometimes

Sometimes

you come to a point in your life where you ask yourself the obvious questions…what is going on in my life and why. Hopefully the answer is great things and you deserve it, but not always. Sometimes the answer is not so great and not really sure why.

Deep breath and start one by one…